Jesus You You hold the world with Your unfailing love The heaven sings Your praises from above In Your name lips shall praise and knees shall bow
Father You The universe exalts in who You are The stars declare Your wonder far and wide How majestic is Your love throughout my life
In You,I find my peace In You,I bend my knees
You are Lord of Heaven You shall Reign in all the earth I humbly bow before Your majesty Now I will sing Your praises and I will sing forevermore I'm captivated by Your love in me
after doing 3 solid hours of accounts paper 2 during consultation, my brain was drained. i went to GAP feeling stoned.. as usual because i felt soo drained. and as usual, my heart was as troubled. i was in doubt and my prayer was filled with questions and doubts. these few months, i've been studying more than serving as the A'levels are coming up in one month's time. i felt so detached from God because i've been do distracted these few months doing things that i shouldn't do and was hiding from people. hiding from accounting about my spiritual life. i feel detached from God because i haven't been doing what i was supposed to do and i was running away. hence, all the doubts and fears. even if i could run away from people, i know i cannot run away from God.
going to church these days felt more or less like a routine. God has, on the other hand, spoken to me week after week through His people and sermons. i've learnt to treat going to church as a way to be energised again from God. i still discipline myself to come back to God, to spend some quiet time with God everyday and tried meditating on His word. however, i'm back to my normal self, with my heart hardened when i get home. me, still felt like running away, still as distracted and fearful (of many things), trying to find security in other things like friends and listening to "muttons to Midnight", looking forward to their jokes to help me feel better by drowning my miseries.
i managed to talk to Wai Ling and update her about what is happening and today was the day when my heart could really surrender everything to God knowing that i don't have to run anymore. i really want to thank God for showing His compassion through Wai Ling, and her prayer. i was afraid because i have been running away from her. she is one who is strict and stern when it comes to how i live my life. this time, instead of being scolded, her words gave me comfort and i felt that she understood and accepted me in my weakness. and i connected this to how God actually is, as a person. how he is also strict when it comes to living a life which is of His standards but understanding our weaknesses and accepting us in who we are as sinners, not being able to do what He wants from us all the time. Wai ling's prayer reminded me not to get confused between serving Him and having a relationship with Him. i am once again brought before God and is reconciled with Him through prayer. i broke down in tears because someone like me who was unworthy actually being accepted and loved by this almighty God. (: her prayer also removed and shattered my facade and my pretentious side that helped me to live pass everyday as God sees right through my heart.
Regina's Word help to reinforce me on how i should live my life daily and i do really pray that i can start again! the only thing that can make me cry the most and can make me joyous is the things of God. nothing else in the world can ever move me so deeply. not even playing or performing well in Brisbane. i was very happy can i can still celebrate about it, but i'm not joyous. seeing someone accepting Christ made me joyous. happiness is not equal to joy. leaving AKE didn't make me cry. the whole ensemble cried except for me. but when i was spiritually down, i cried so badly till my eyes were swollen. i hope to see my spiritual life change after my A's. (:
9/30/2008 11:07:00 PM
Saturday, September 27, 2008
right... so all my results are out. i'm one mark off my target for maths p2 and i'm failed GP. my accounts maintained for p1. with half of my papers out and the rest badly done. my hopes are seriously dashed. :\ hmm. oh wells. thanks to Cheryl for her reality check for we always tend to decieve ourselves and try to aim as high as possible but never achieving it. thanks Regina for your comfort to help me to move forward. i appreciate it. to the max. (:
a split up request has been sent. WOO HOO!~
9/27/2008 09:12:00 PM
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
school reopened today!. but i am still sick. x_X i've gotten my voice back. finally... having to eat my breakfast, i thought today would turn out manageable but morning hit me with cold showers. :( got stuck in the library with aircon for chem lessons. burr~
oh wells. then i got back chem and accounts paper 1. HORRIBLE! i studied like siao for chem and i'm still getting a U. at least i improved for paper 1. i hope paper 2 won't pull me down. oh wells. i dunno how now... to study chem. as the sayings of my stupid angel NG says "ganbatte! TOGETHER WE WILL SUCCEED!" yea right... lol. jk lah. psycho-ing myself. never give up, never give up, never give up...
the song that expresses my current situation would be stop and stare.
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see?
9/24/2008 08:42:00 PM
Sunday, September 21, 2008
yea! today was tiring but fun! had church this morning. but i coughed till i'm voiceless. :\. so yea. had to rush out of the room to cough. if not i'll disturb people. i think i'll have to do that tomorrow also for chemistry lesson. i shall ask Miss Chan's permission.
after YPF, we went to celebrate Yu'an's birthday! haha. at er... Casuania??? :P sorry. i forgot what the name of that place is. but the food there is GOOOOOOD! haha. i ate prata with cheese and saugage. it's only $3.50 and it came in a very big portion. too bad i didn't take the picture. but! Yu'an and wenling made fun of me when i was tired and i got an unglam shot. wahaha. i guess i'm the only one who puts my own unglam pics. see?!
i'm actually resting on wen ling's hand. haha. thanks for the straw yea? -_-'''
hello! yea~ prelims are finally over! i'm like taking a super long break lah. :X shh... haha. i hope my prelim results are fine. hmm... oh wells. got sick. down with flu and cough and sore throat. x_X lol. finished my tesitimonial! i hope Miss Leow will add on the extras. wahaha.
i've spend a few days doing the brisbane photos into a movie. it's super long, about 1 hr and 13 mins. so u have to be super free to watch it. however, it took super long to upload. yea... am i crazy or what?? the video is 1 hr plus. oh wells. those who wanna see the videos can get it from me anyways. i dun think i'll upload it here. :(
my keyboard is finally back to normal a few days age. imagine me typing the previous post with the on-screen keyboard. x_X my finger was on the verge of breaking. wahaha. oh wells. went to blogskins.com to check out blogskins and i found one which is very nice!! and i decided to change it-- not because i'm in love, but the design melted my heart.
i'm currently going crazy over Jason Mraz. i think many are. so... i'm going to post the lyrics up. :D this is the latest song (on the radio) and it's super romantic. (:
"Lucky"
(feat. Colbie Caillat)
Do you hear me,I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreamsI feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
9/04/2008 01:01:00 AM
Welcome!
"But you will not leave in haste, or go in flight; for the
Lord will go before you, the God of Isreal will be your rear
guard." [Isaiah 52:7]
It's Me
Ow Mei Ling
Xinmin Pri-> Bowen-> MI
CCAs: badminton, basketball, Military band
(percussionist- mallet player), ake(angklung kulintang
ensemble)
religion: Christianity
I find it hard to convey to you guys, so yea, I'll just let the bible speak.(:
"I have been crucified with Christ and i no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life i live in the body, i live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me." [Galatians 2:20]
"We demolish arguements and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ." [2 Corinthians 10:5]
"The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge but fools despise wisdom and discipline." [Proverbs 1:7]
"being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Jesus Christ." [Philippians 1:6]
"No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him that loved us." [Romans 8:37]
"The spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God's children. Now if we are God's children, then we are heirs- heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory." [Romans 8:16-17]
"But if anyone obeys His words, God's love is truly made complete in Him. This is how we know we are in Him." [1 John 2:5]
