Monday, December 25, 2006
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
i think this year's christmas is the best one ever. i'm filled with pure joy! not happiness though. there's a difference between them. (: i treated yesterday as christmas because my church were celebrating it and we were all just exchanging presents. :X ahaha. and i truly remembered why we celebrate christimas as it is though it was by the help of the movie"the nativity story." i'm going penange later! so i think i'll blog now since it's christmas day.
i'm just glad that my friend, James accepted Christ and is growing spiritually. (: this is the best thing i could ever experience with a friend! (: God truly bring His own people back through all kinds of ways. (: praise God for all these things. oh yea, and praise God for he changes people in the heart and in the mind even though he or she might be a non-christian. (: yesterday morning, i got a mssage from Clement saying that he is willing to change after a long thought. he told me that he realises his mistake of changing girlfriends and he is willing to change. (: how glad can i be? i've been talking to him about this issue afew months ago. i asked him to change but he was unwilling. until somthing hit him hard, then he would. this is how God works in everybody. (: i'm not having grieve over james's past of impulsive breaking up with his ex or anything because i know God is in control and He will refine him in his old ways. this is how i know because it is said in the bible that he is not in living in his old self anymore but in Christ. (: so yea. have a joyous and blessed christmas people! (:
12/25/2006 06:41:00 PM
Sunday, December 10, 2006
yep. so i have my cup of Lipton Jasmine tea with me now. (: i'm feeling refreshed after taking a long nap and had enjoyed myself watching 红星大奖. yes! and i managed to tiny my last words and changed it to yellow so u guys cannot read it. i know... i think about 10 000 people might have read my entries already. ahaha. oh wells. for those who dun know, u dun have to know what's going on. ahaha. (:
so my exams are over. that means, i have to do my holiday assignment and catch up with my pass year's work. and i dun think i have enough time to do complete what i planned to revise and complete during the holidays. on actual calculation basis, i only have 1 week to do revision and homework. yes, and that is this week. x_X. haha. i still have a tight schedule ahead of me. oh wells, a man's gotta do what a man's gotta do!
i dun think i'll ever survive next year. haha. just kidding. no doubt i have loads to manage on my own next year, i will still pull through next year with the help of the Lord. (: for those out there who retained this year, take heart and strive on. u guys have one year to revise on your JC1 topics and i'm sure u have lesser things to handle compared to me. (: just take it as my pre-u2 then. (: all the best for the A'level exam to those who are taking it regardless of when we're taking it.
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dear Lord,
i want to thank You for reinstating me time and time agian without fail. Your grace have been sufficient for me though my sins are plenty. this time round i still want to thank You for this year that had passed. You gave me new friends in my workplace during the 1st 3 months, and classmates this following 9 months. You equipped me with Your Word that i may grip hold to it steadfastly. i thank You for ur servants who constantly abide in You and all the more strive to build up those who are weaker in faith; people like me.
i've learnt to base my emotions on Your Words. and i thank YOU for the changes, O Lord. You made me who i am today. You gave me my selfworth because You saw me precious and gave me salvation even when YOU don't need me. "who can fathom the depth of Your love?" no one can Lord. such love even I cannot give. who would actually love someone who sin against anyone Lord? only You would. people like us would definitely rage with anger. but You taught me how to love and forgive, like how You love and forgive us sinners. it may be tough, but You did it as a human. You give us strength through Your Holy Spirit no matter how our human thoughts and mind hated doing it. "the truth will set u free". this is a sentence with rich teachings behind it. and this is something i'm still learning to apply. espcially on the word "free" Lord. it's not the freedom that we all think it would be. the freedom that are based on Your Words are actually restricting in what normal people think it to be.
i want to thank You for today's sermon. though the scripture text was preached before, Your message reminds me and give me comfort of the current situation that i am facing Lord. You know what is going on and You understood and come to my rescue when i needed. You will come just in time. You comforted me through your message as i felt very lost and hopeless; in search of something that i couldn't find. this 2 weeks of not having to study Your Word kept me in hunger of it Lord. but i thank You that no matter how i dislike coming back to You after sinning, You gave me discipline to read and pray to you everyday. You graciously opened your arms to me and i returned in tears all the time. i pray that You forgive me for placing someone of higher regard than You. You told me not to yolk with non-believers. i did not do it literally but You judge by the heart Lord. my mind is filled with him than You. You told me not to love the world's system of doing things, but i did it. i still lack the discipline in alot of areas of my life. and it took me alot of pain to let go of these sinful lifestyle due to how i had always lived my life Lord. i fail to plan my time properly to use it for Your ministry fully, i fail to do what You commanded me to do as a christian Lord. but i thank You for You are molding me. for i am saved through faith BY GRACE and not by works. (: all i ever pray is that You do not leave me Lord.
i want to leave this mission trip to your hands Lord, that You use us YPF. i want to pray that we will be Your tool for evangelism, to bring the lost ones to You Lord. i felt that i may have jeopardised the work of salvation because of the way i lived Lord, but You allowed me to see that i do not despise the work of the Holy Spirit. i pray that You continue to guide me and the others Lord. and i pray that You continue to give the others strength to perservere in You. indeed, there's no joy other than growing spiritually in You Lord.
in Jesus name i pray,
Amen.
I Stand In Awe
A Amaj7
You are beautiful beyond description
D2/A A
Too marvelous for words,
A Amaj7
Too wonderful for comprehension,
D E
Like nothing ever seen or heard.
F#m B
Who can grasp your infinite wisdom?
D E
Who can fathom the depth of your love?
A Amaj7
You are beautiful beyond description,
D Esus E A D/E E
Majesty enthroned a - bove.
A E D
And I stand, I stand, in awe of you.
A E D
I stand, I stand in awe of you.
C#7sus C#7 Dm7 Dm7/B
Holy God, to whom all praise is due,
Bm7 E D/A
I stand In awe of you.
12/10/2006 11:24:00 PM
Saturday, December 09, 2006
oh yea!
alot of things happened but i didn't get to blog about it because i was having exams. thank you, Valerie for calling me out though it's the day before my exam. haha we went shopping! u bought presents for ur friend and we both bought a shirt from Dorothy Perkins after having lunch together. (: ahaha. then we catched Open Season. (: this time round i was laughing so bad that i hit u almost all the time i laughed. u didn't hit me! :O. surprising! hehe. then after the movie, ur mom called and said there's free drinks in starbucks. and i practically dragged u down to line up with me. what's so embarrassing about that anyway? queuing up for a drink which is free? ahaha. so we got our drinks and u were ELATED. gees... so it's worth the queue right?? : haha. u are always like that. u feel embarrassed doing something but u feel so happy when u get the results. ahaha. oh wells. so i took my time to finish up that chocolate chip cream and then we went home. though unwilling to get home, i had a nice day with u that day. (: hope to go out with u again!
my diploma exam are finally over! ahaha. but i'm feeling horrible! i tried cramping whatever i still hadn't know into my mind for the past 2 days and felt anxious all over. but guess what? the qns that came out are things that i need not cramp! gahh!! i called the paper easy. easy to fail. y?? because whatever came out is identify and list the advantages and disadvantages of something. a little of explaining here and there. except for the last qn. the last qn, my lecturer didn't teach! and it's in the textbook. the best thing is... i couldn't blame him because he called us to refer to the textbook to read up further. :( he said his notes is sufficient! hai ya. blame also no use. it's over already. haha. the second qn i learn 2 out of 4 frauds. how to answer? the second last qn i thought i could aga aga brainstorm on the spot. i mean, i did, but i don't think i would score high. just hope that i can pass lah huh.
so, all the energy that i prepared for the exam is not used at all. i don't feel satisfied because i didn't get to use what i actually tried to remember. i went to the arcade in the end at 7+ to play. :X with Clement of course. then James called while we were on the train and talked abit and Clement suggested if he wanna come along. so yea. he came. ahaha. i spent all my concentration on that Daytona game instead. ahaha. got 1st twice! ahahaa. so happy. i saw Romance as well. wow... he's someone who's good in shooting. having "perfect" for his results after each stage. (: and i didn't know he knew Clement and everybody can mix around. ahaha.
YOU actually wore the jacket that u bought on the 3rd of dec. too bad i didn't wear the shirt. :X dun think u really mind anyway. (:
12/09/2006 01:26:00 PM
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
this is the day which i think i'll never forget. sunday, the 3rd of dec 2006
even though i'm not in the right place where i ought to be, i got to enjoy this day with YOU.
after the marathon, we went for "brunch". though i find that mine was not filling, it could actually last the whole day till dinner. i thought we could actually spent the day with Vino but she had to go. YOU suggested that we go and play the arcade but we're pretty afraid because my shirt has the "MI" logo on it. so both of us went shopping for a shirt as Vino couldn't lend me hers. we walked one round and halfway through it, James called and we talked about 7 plus mins. u stopped at a shop and u talked to the salesgirl. u asked if there's a simple shirt for me. she asked what size and u looked at me saying:" for her." she kindly showed me the section where they sell shirts for girls. i was still talking on the phone while choosing my shirt. i was still choosing my shirt and YOU went missing! oh wells, nevermind about that. i shall just look for a shirt. i went into the changing room to try size M, went out to change for size L, and went back in. and then :"Mei Ling, 你在里面啊？", "呃." i finished choosing my shirt and i wanted to pay but i couldn't find YOU. so i was waiting for YOU and YOU came out from the changing room, just opposite mine, wearing a maroon grey jacket/sweater.
salesgirl:"so what size suits u? M or L?"
YOU:"eh, the zip got problem is it? i can't zip it."
salesgirl:"u want a new one? i could get it for u."
me:"you lousy lah, not the zip got problem."
and i helped u to zip it.
YOU:"so what size should i get? M or L?"
me:" take M lah, it fits YOU."
YOU:"but my shirt all very big leh."
YOU:"so should i take L?"
me:" how i know? i never see u wear L before."
and u put on L. as usual u couldn't zip it and i had to help u again.
me:"arh! why that zip cannot move one? lousy zip..."
YOU:*chuckles*
me: "ah there! can already. u lousy lah u. never put properly."
i thought through and came out with a decision that u should get the L size.
me: "y u choose this colour?"
YOU: " y? not nice arh?"
me: "dunno, but it looks pretty dull. got other colours not?"
YOU:"there..."
YOU pointed unclearly where the jackets were. so i went there and see the colours...
me: " i think brown and yellow suits u. but this kind of colours usually suit the malays lah."
YOU: *weird expression*
salesgirl:"that section are for girls."
YOU: *laughed at me*
me: "can i pay 1st?"
salesgirl: "u're paying 1st?"
me:"yea."
YOU nodded your head too.
then YOU put the maroon grey jacket on the counter.
Me:" u're getting this?
YOU:" ya"
me:"are u serious?"
YOU:"ya."
oh wells. so YOU bought that jacket and i was waiting. i felt embarssed because i stink after the run.
YOU:"u go and change 1st lah."
so off i went and YOU kindly waited for me outside the toilet. (: thank YOU so much.
ahaha. i think she thought we're together. lol. but we're not! wahahaa. so off we went to the arcade and played the games. i thought YOU couldn't dance "para para" but YOU acutally danced pretty well, not embarrassing yourself and getting pretty high scores for the game. (:
and y did YOU tell me that 2 girls asked for YOUR number while i was going to the toilet? YOU told me that while we're going home. Vino said YOU're desperate when i told her that. ahaha. stop praising YOURSELF that YOU attract girls ok? ahaha. these comments won't affect me.
so there, this is the 1st time that i ever shop with a guy... for clothes! i didn't expect YOU to buy clothes with me. i bought that shirt because i need it. YOU shopped because... YOU're bored? and YOU didn't need it! this surprised me because i thought YOU will just wait for me while i buy my clothes. but YOU went ahead and try on clothes for YOURSELF. (:
i had fun with YOU and YOUR horrible singing while we search for plaster as my blister broke. argh!~ ahaha. alot of adults thought that YOU had great taste for women's clothes when i told them i went shopping with a guy. ahaha. i was surprised because YOU actually shopped with me. thank YOU for giving me entertainment and enough care this whole month when we got our diploma lessons. YOU knew i had some feelings for YOU, and we could actually keep it on the low for me and we resumed as per normal. YOU had some way with girls hadn't YOU? ahaha. i did get jealous when YOU talked and tease MJ the other time. oh wells. i tried to get over it and i did it. not of YOUR help actually. (:
i wrote this because i know YOU wouldn't get to read it. i was thinking how come someone like YOU could actually shop for clothes with me. then i remembered that there's once that we finish our lunch, we were so fulled that we shopped around and there's this one shop that sells clothes for guys. and both of us looked at the clothes together and gave comments. is that why YOU could actually shop with me? :X oh wells, all the best for YOUR exams then! (:
12/06/2006 04:44:00 PM
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
i'm utterly disappointed...
spiritually!. just by chance, i went into Clement's blog. he seems like someone in thought, however, the values of morality is wrong! utterly wrong!
and the opening page looks nice... it starts with a sermon... wow... but then it has no link to what i am reading. and i see no application at all. i wanted to correct, but did not because i am in rage. grr... and yea... the world is coming to this stage where people do not hear what they wanna hear even though truth hurts. one very simple eg is this: [A: Am I fat?, B: yes., A: oh! can't u just lie to me?] nah... no application here... but it illustrates the deep down logic and values people have. that they would rather hear sweet lies than to listen to the harsh truth. people want to feel "good". as i read the last words of "My words: ..." in his blog. it is horrible. and i was on the verge and puking blood because the truth is being applied to how people want it to be. to suit their own needs. this is not common because it is stated in the bible. i think people ought to read the bible in the most literal way and not take it out of context. and if they want to further study on it, do research on the net and ask for sources that are good! human sense of reliability isn't really reliable anyway. just because of a PHD in something doesn't mean he or she is saying the truth or it is completely followable. i think everthing has to come back the bible. for if anyone can say that the bible is wrong in anyway, prove it. still, though such things will not cease at this moment for the Lord has not come back, His promise to us is still true. "seek and u shall find". [correct and reprimand me if i'm wrong. thanks. (:]
however, i thank God for whatever He has done when in comes to His sovereign choice, His grace and mercy and His salvation. He Brings His people back and He turns a heart of stone to a heart of flesh. that joy is everlasting complared to the pain because the old order of things will pass away eventually. for the christians out there who are perservering in the Lord. take heart and continue to be faithful! put ur Hope in the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ for He shall reign forever. (:
12/05/2006 04:03:00 AM
